I wonder if I should bother reaching out to them.. It’s been years since I’ve had a deep conversation with any of them.. I’ve lost a great handful of friends.. Seeing them now & how much they’ve changed and matured makes me feel like I haven’t accomplished anything. Ive put my boyfriend first for so many years I’ve never bothered to take care of myself. I haven’t changed for myself. I’m still the same person. I still have the same dreams. My way of thinking hasn’t changed. I still hate drinking and smoking. All of my old friends drink and smoke. I don’t know anyone my age that isn’t all about the parties, booze, sex, & drugs. Idk if I’m being uptight? Or I just can’t step out of my comfort zone. I’m still heart broken & I’m hoping my prince charming will come.. I really haven’t changed a bit… So why would it be hard for me to speak to my old friends??